So, I deleted my Facebook….AGAIN. I know, I know, I have a Facebook deactivation problem. But, I think this time I really am going to stay off. You may think I have some serious issues (and perhaps I do), but I just get tired of it. Hopefully I am not the only who has wanted to. I think we all do for different reasons. Whether it’s because you felt obligated to “friend” some people and now they annoy the crap out of you, or you really just aren’t that interested in what your acquaintances from high school are doing or eating for lunch. Honestly, I have always just been a very intimate person. I love those closest to me fervently, but besides those select few, I really just don’t want to be even virtually involved with other people. Not that I don’t like them, or think poorly of them, I just don’t care. In that way, I suppose I am a loner. On top of that, I have never actually used it for networking. So, maybe one day when that would benefit me, I will make another, but I definitely don’t need the distraction during school.
And, another thing, social networking is not friendship! If you really want to know me and be my friend you should take the time to. Not just stalk my profile or pictures, and send me a quick shout out saying we should hang out sometime (which never is followed up). I don’t know how often I have made efforts to keep relationships alive and just gotten worn out trying to make it work. I have learned to accept that relationships grow apart. There is nothing you can do about it. You will be blessed with people that will always have your number and always make an equal effort to stay close, but the majority will filter out whenever you move through that particular stage of your life. So, I suppose I just didn’t want to make it easier for people to pretend to be my “friend”. On top of that, I have so many things I would rather do than let myself sit on my butt and scroll through my news feed. I love to write and read. I love to go outdoors and just be in nature. I hadn’t even been outside for the past week (other than walking to and from classes), and my stress level was ridiculous. Then, this Friday, I went to the lake and just lay in the sun- it felt marvelous. It felt like I hadn’t had fresh air in ages. I missed being alive, outside, being active, and ALIVE. I’m going to miss talking to my family, but they are always just a phone call away, and that is more real. Not to mention I could even just make a road trip and visit them rather than talk via Facebook.
Honestly, I am probably just silly, but I have decided to start following my own advice. There are always things (negative things) that can be purged out of my life. It is difficult, but always worth it. I’ve been trying to get rid of a lot of negativity lately. That is my goal after all- to live simply and love deeply. This is just another way I am trying to simplify my life.
But that was my little explanation. I ranted just a little bit, sorry! 🙂
Have a great weekend and don’t forget to make some actual social contact 😉