This month has been a crazy whirlwind. One of those periods of time where you find yourself just forgetting to breathe, which sounds crazy. I will literally pause for a split second and realize I’m not breathing and have to force a deep breath to stabilize. In fact, one of the main reasons I have not been posting lately is because I’ve taken a quote from the movie The Secret Life of Walter Mitty pretty seriously. Walter has finally found the famous photographer, Sean, in the mountains and asks when he gets a perfect shot of a snow leopard…
Walter Mitty: When are you going to take it?
Sean O’Connell: Sometimes I don’t. If I like a moment, for me, personally, I don’t like to have the distraction of the camera. I just want to stay in it.
Walter Mitty: Stay in it?
Sean O’Connell: Yeah. Right there. Right here.
It was a surprisingly good movie, definitely not what I was expecting from the initial previews. But this moment really resonated with me. It is something that M has always hassled me about. I’m guilty of being one of those insta-snappers, I want to hold onto moments so badly! Plus, I like photos because I think I’m artsy (but probably not). Yet, it is so easy to forget to just appreciate what you are seeing. Finding that balance between taking pictures and enjoying the moment can be tough.
I feel like in the world of selfies and Facebook it is so easy to forget to just set aside the phone, the interweb, and just be. I feel as though that is something that is incredibly hard for my generation. In fact, I recently had to force myself to not get on Facebook and Pinterest just so I could not procrastinate on all my schoolwork and actually do some “me time” reading. It made me feel so silly. At my age, many moons ago, people were already producing great novels or music and all I have done is pinned some snazzy DIY gardening and room decor that will probably never be produced.
What am I doing with my life?!
I know it’s becoming an overused piece of advice to have some serious detox from all the social media and what not, but I believe it is incredibly necessary to remember there is a world out there that isn’t inside my mobile device. It’s great to pin all the things on my bucket list, but how about actually doing it. Right now. It sounds cliche, I know I know. But, I could be typing a novel right now or even just baking a recipe I have really wanted to try. Why not do it? It almost seems like just by saying, “I’ll do that eventually” it makes it done, but it is not and it never will be if I do not take the initiative.
Overall, it is crazy how terrifying it is to disconnect to all those sites. I literally have deleted my Facebook account probably 5 times since I joined in high school in some desperate attempt to disconnect to the alter-reality it creates. It is great to be able to connect with people long distance, but it is such a satisfying feeling to see them in person and hang out like old times. Those are the reasons I want to continue to connect with them online, because we created a genuine relationship offline.
I think a lot of people overlook the psychological effects the internet can bring to many users. The psychology community has already termed conditions like Internet Addiction Disorder (IAD). Honestly, it is not surprising. After my alarm goes off in the morning, I immediately check my email and Facebook and I do not like it! I used to be woken up by my significant other and would spend time making breakfast together or being goofy (given, we still do that after I check my phone, but I feel overwhelmed by screen time these days!). Now, I wake up to a glaring smart-phone screen. If you think about it, there has to be something going on there where I feel so impulsed to do that. I know I can live without my phone, but that is a crazy thought. Why is that such a weird idea??
Whether or not it has a truly significant impact either way, I know that it takes away my creativity and the pursuits of many interests. I literally had to force myself to finish Long Walk to Freedom by Nelson Mandela (which is the best autobiography you could ever make yourself read, seriously!). It took me four years to read that book, and there are many other books that have been sitting on my shelf begging my attention, but I always find myself picking up my laptop instead of one of my favorite things- books!
So in case you were wondering about my absence- it has been a crazy mix of being busy with so many things all at once and my desire to peel myself away from the webisphere. This was kind of like a pep talk to myself… But, I hope you are all still out there and living life!
As always, thanks for reading and coming with me on my crazy beautiful journey and I challenge you to unplug and do something you have been meaning to but just have not gotten to yet. Or even just refrain from that picture of your food. I think it’s meant to be eaten, not instagrammed (I am so guilty of this!) Best wishes!